Natasha

She lives there
with everyone else
too close to touch
the girl who's name means
Christmas,
who's husband conquered Kings,
and she lives there,
in the story
rewritten, and edited for time
and content
and conceivability.
She lives there,
where I cannot reach her,
and her blonde hair
is always perfect
and hides the scar
she never got
in the better version-
the lie
where she lives there,
and not there,
with everyone else
too close to touch.
My head is full of them
and her.
She lives there.