ramble

it's autumn here
and we are slowly winding down the year
the countdown has started
and it's hot when the sun shines directly down
and there is no wind
or one is indoors
as I should be
and only then
the rest of the time
we exist in what is unseasonably cold
for this time of year
though we remind ourselves
to be thankful
that it is a cold breeze
and not a slow-moving chain of tornadoes
that ripped open the heartland last week.
and we are
I am
thankful for knee socks
and hot coffee
in paper cups with cardboard sleeves
because they create a momentary
break in the otherwise
almost unbearable cold.

And it has been unbearable.

the first six months
we thawed from the sudden frost
that coated our exteriors
and cracked against the everyday strain.
The past five and half months
we have spent in pensive dread
keeping ourselves busy
hoping we will wake
on that day
and forget-
be washed clean.
it's less than four week away now
I don't want it to come
and bring another influx of news crews
but it would be nice
to stop treading water
and swim
or sink
anything is better than this now.