and since then...

I remember you drank red wine that day
and I wondered if you would think less of me
because I always only drank white.
You didn't act as if you'd care-
or even notice my choice-
but I wondered, just the same.
You looked up and past me-
went somewhere in your head
and I watched you-
though I did my best to hide it,
I didn't want you to know that
I watched you follow the line of thought
until it seemed you went too far
pictured whatever it was too clearly
and then you were back in the diner booth with me
both of us talking way too much
waiting for the other to say it.
You caved in the parking lot
But I was dating men then.